Love beyond words.............

  Yet another day passes away silently... Yet another time the lethargic sun decides to take a plunge beyond the horizon. But this one left an uncanny feeling in me. After today I would not be doing certain things. Thanks to you all for your support and help. But it had to come someday........

Hey !! Don’t worry, this is not my last post....

It was just another day at office...But it was different. I had tried to take it as just any other day but ohh!! , I am helpless. It given me quite a mixed feeling. Ok enough of playing with wordings, you might be thinking, what has gone wrong with me. So here it goes…..

 This is the day, I am writing about her. About the person, I would want to call LIFE. A person, who had been with and within me, a person who had stood by me and also sometimes stood against as well. A person who has imbibed in me the feeling of love, the feeling of sharing, the feeling of … how to feel about feelings. Along with many of her facets she happened to come into my life on a day which was as simple as it sounds. But it was really special for me, because SHE came into my life....

She is even blushing sitting in front of me, as I draft in these few lines about her. I can see the warmth in her eyes, feel the smile on her face. I feel that it is only her, that I had ever wanted and would ever want....

Am I really sounding stupid or paranoid ?

SHE thinks so.”Why are you writing all these things today ? what do you want to prove ?” yes .. we are not together any more. But does being together only testifies the presence of love ? Does words of love only, expresses the love you truly feel ? Or it really does ?

If I say that words of eyes speaks far more than lips. There is a greater depth of expression in silence than a chaos of emotions. But this is what I believed and she did not. She wanted to give words to my silence, add sound to my muted expressions. But I really could not help her. Meanwhile I started enjoying my active participation in the world of peacefulness and somber. I could not provide enough wordings to my feelings that could convey to her my message.

 Days turned to months and months to year. We finally gave way to our respective projects. We finally gave in to the mere casual idea of unearthing the words from the locked chests kept in the dungeons of my heart. And finally the day arrived when i had to face the stark reality “Do we really love each other anymore ? Was it really love at any point ?” And the worst of them all “ Do we have a future ?”

 I still live with these questions with my arms open wide.........