Farewell of a Relationship................
Throughout the past 3 years, its been me who has been on the dominating side and speaking always, then why today I lack words to speak? Today when am sitting to compose a farewell mail for the love of my life, why am I lacking the words to speak or blurt out, do I want to reconsider my descion again? Thoughts flowed whole day and took me back to past recalling about the moments of the relationship that started on long distance mode and required a lot of understanding, patience and adjustment to make it last for life time………………………………
As , I sit lonely in my cubicle, looking outside the window, recalling the very 1st time we met…………………
I reach the destined place and make u wander here and there in search of me, and me standing behind the pillar, searching fr u….there I can see u getting impatient to see the person whom u committed 1 month back on Orkut and dying to see in real life…Confusing u abt my location n phone, seeing u scratching ur head, perspiring, I finally came infront of u….…As we sat in Barista , u gazing directly in my eyes and ur eyes don’t even blink, as if that was the last time u wud be seeing me……Consciously , u deny having anything to eat with u still trying to regaining ur composure………..Dont knw where to start and wht to talk about……..I cudnt give u the comfort zone u were luking for initially, but I regained my composure, and talked abt things……………..Words hardly seemed to come out from u………But still u showed flair and style in the way u reciprocated and it touched my heart…………………Time passed and ticking of time made u wonder, do u wanna go back as ur sis would be waiting fr u outside? Waving gud bye, with a promise to see ya again, u zoomed off…….And I cudnt even blink an eye lid, is this the starting of the dream?...................................................................Things never remained the same there after………………………………………………………………
I could feel my eyes watery, feeling the warmth of the tears falling on my fingers, I realized I have come back to real life, as cud hear the sms sound…………Was awaken from my memorable thoughts………The sms reflected confirmation of delivery of anniversary gifts to u, after all its our 3rd Anniversary……………..Tried hard to go back to past, but cudnt do that, eyes glued to mobile, thinking u wud revert back with a thankful sms for sending across gifts…………….but time ticked away and heart made me realize that , this is real life and today is my farewell day too…………………….
My last day in delhi, waiting since morning to hear from you and make sure, I met u last time before I left for the place, from where, I wud never return back in ur life………………It seemed a long day, eyes didn’t miss any second looking at the mobile buzzing, finally it happened…………….U asked to meet in a hurry, but as soon as I cud jump out of my bed, saw u messaging, opting out to meet, coz u not comfortable. My heart beats stopped…………Didn’t knw how to respond, time was ticking away and going away from u forever seemed jst nearing the end………………whole day, I waited, waited, didn’t feel that u wud even get time now to meet me as everyone at ur home and u coming out in evening seemed impossible…………..still I gathered courage to ask u for sum time in evening….My eyes showed tears of love, as you responded in affirmative………Time seemed to stop for a while, digesting, finally I am gonna see u for the last time…………………….Next 3 hrs went in desperation, thinking, crying, talking to myself, wht I am gonna say, wht I am gonna do, wud I break infront of u? wud I be able to hold ur hand again?.........................with thoughts in back of the mind, I set to meet u……………….There u came after so many complication in ur house, jst coz u also desired to talk abt things and end in positive manner…………………….
U were infront of me, and for first time in life, I was shortage of words, u were gazing in my eyes and I wasn’t able to match u………………U had that smile on ur face, may be trying to read my mind with penchant, but I seemed to be in a lost world………………I was trying to tell my heart, “dekh le ruchi ko, this is the last time u seeing her “……….I wanted to capture and enjy that last moment of my life………………Words started flowing, I talked abt all past stuff and desire to have u in my life back…………….1st time saw u speaking and matching word to word……………Then after that, it was you who speaking everything and I was standing there listening to every word with patience and tears in eyes…………………..I am not so weak, neither I have been in life. But the very thought of losing u fr life………..was not getting through …………….U talked abt things, which I never imagined to hear ever in life, u seem to reserve ur best for the last………………… I heard and heard, agreed, agreed, yes yes to everything……………….my heart cried, my eyes froze………………the came the dreaded wordings……………….U said “ Its time to move”
I wanted to hold ur hand , shake them………Hug u for the last time………but cudnt utter a word, I was frozen…………..U asked me to walk in opposite directions……………U walked past me, I waited, waited, but u never turned even back…………………..I stood there like a dummy for next 10 mins……….My feet became heavy, I became senseless at that moment, ……….Bump!!!! Came the bike and dashed into me as I was standing in the mid way, my tears finally fell on my hands and I realized the pain of hit and senses came back……………Brought me to real life……………..I had lost u…………..I had lost the love of my life forever……………………..I managed to reach back home and buried myself in my mom’s lap saying” I wud never come back MOM”………………………..
Today, I sit back recall all these memories………Happy Anniversary Varun and Ruchi……………………….Thanks for being there for me there for past 3 years and doing every bit for me and my family with smiles…………………………..I don’t have words to express my gratitude towards you at all……………..Even my apologizes for all pains I gave u throughout, wud mean nothing now……………..
I wish you gud luck for your future ahead and god bless u always…………..may you get the best partner in ur life !!! All the best for ur career and may u reach greater heights in life!!!
Our relations , bonding and friendship, finally ENDS here all together in every respect………………………..
I would be lost in my world from here after and expect you to do the same……………………….
Wishes
Varun
And the mail was sent………………………………………..with many thoughts, wordings left unsaid……………………………..
As , I sit lonely in my cubicle, looking outside the window, recalling the very 1st time we met…………………
I reach the destined place and make u wander here and there in search of me, and me standing behind the pillar, searching fr u….there I can see u getting impatient to see the person whom u committed 1 month back on Orkut and dying to see in real life…Confusing u abt my location n phone, seeing u scratching ur head, perspiring, I finally came infront of u….…As we sat in Barista , u gazing directly in my eyes and ur eyes don’t even blink, as if that was the last time u wud be seeing me……Consciously , u deny having anything to eat with u still trying to regaining ur composure………..Dont knw where to start and wht to talk about……..I cudnt give u the comfort zone u were luking for initially, but I regained my composure, and talked abt things……………..Words hardly seemed to come out from u………But still u showed flair and style in the way u reciprocated and it touched my heart…………………Time passed and ticking of time made u wonder, do u wanna go back as ur sis would be waiting fr u outside? Waving gud bye, with a promise to see ya again, u zoomed off…….And I cudnt even blink an eye lid, is this the starting of the dream?...................................................................Things never remained the same there after………………………………………………………………
I could feel my eyes watery, feeling the warmth of the tears falling on my fingers, I realized I have come back to real life, as cud hear the sms sound…………Was awaken from my memorable thoughts………The sms reflected confirmation of delivery of anniversary gifts to u, after all its our 3rd Anniversary……………..Tried hard to go back to past, but cudnt do that, eyes glued to mobile, thinking u wud revert back with a thankful sms for sending across gifts…………….but time ticked away and heart made me realize that , this is real life and today is my farewell day too…………………….
My last day in delhi, waiting since morning to hear from you and make sure, I met u last time before I left for the place, from where, I wud never return back in ur life………………It seemed a long day, eyes didn’t miss any second looking at the mobile buzzing, finally it happened…………….U asked to meet in a hurry, but as soon as I cud jump out of my bed, saw u messaging, opting out to meet, coz u not comfortable. My heart beats stopped…………Didn’t knw how to respond, time was ticking away and going away from u forever seemed jst nearing the end………………whole day, I waited, waited, didn’t feel that u wud even get time now to meet me as everyone at ur home and u coming out in evening seemed impossible…………..still I gathered courage to ask u for sum time in evening….My eyes showed tears of love, as you responded in affirmative………Time seemed to stop for a while, digesting, finally I am gonna see u for the last time…………………….Next 3 hrs went in desperation, thinking, crying, talking to myself, wht I am gonna say, wht I am gonna do, wud I break infront of u? wud I be able to hold ur hand again?.........................with thoughts in back of the mind, I set to meet u……………….There u came after so many complication in ur house, jst coz u also desired to talk abt things and end in positive manner…………………….
U were infront of me, and for first time in life, I was shortage of words, u were gazing in my eyes and I wasn’t able to match u………………U had that smile on ur face, may be trying to read my mind with penchant, but I seemed to be in a lost world………………I was trying to tell my heart, “dekh le ruchi ko, this is the last time u seeing her “……….I wanted to capture and enjy that last moment of my life………………Words started flowing, I talked abt all past stuff and desire to have u in my life back…………….1st time saw u speaking and matching word to word……………Then after that, it was you who speaking everything and I was standing there listening to every word with patience and tears in eyes…………………..I am not so weak, neither I have been in life. But the very thought of losing u fr life………..was not getting through …………….U talked abt things, which I never imagined to hear ever in life, u seem to reserve ur best for the last………………… I heard and heard, agreed, agreed, yes yes to everything……………….my heart cried, my eyes froze………………the came the dreaded wordings……………….U said “ Its time to move”
I wanted to hold ur hand , shake them………Hug u for the last time………but cudnt utter a word, I was frozen…………..U asked me to walk in opposite directions……………U walked past me, I waited, waited, but u never turned even back…………………..I stood there like a dummy for next 10 mins……….My feet became heavy, I became senseless at that moment, ……….Bump!!!! Came the bike and dashed into me as I was standing in the mid way, my tears finally fell on my hands and I realized the pain of hit and senses came back……………Brought me to real life……………..I had lost u…………..I had lost the love of my life forever……………………..I managed to reach back home and buried myself in my mom’s lap saying” I wud never come back MOM”………………………..
Today, I sit back recall all these memories………Happy Anniversary Varun and Ruchi……………………….Thanks for being there for me there for past 3 years and doing every bit for me and my family with smiles…………………………..I don’t have words to express my gratitude towards you at all……………..Even my apologizes for all pains I gave u throughout, wud mean nothing now……………..
I wish you gud luck for your future ahead and god bless u always…………..may you get the best partner in ur life !!! All the best for ur career and may u reach greater heights in life!!!
Our relations , bonding and friendship, finally ENDS here all together in every respect………………………..
I would be lost in my world from here after and expect you to do the same……………………….
Wishes
Varun
And the mail was sent………………………………………..with many thoughts, wordings left unsaid……………………………..
P.S : Its just an excerpt of the relationship part and not all the details have been highlighted in true sense, not its any attempt to degrade the gal, coz the author cherishes the valuable time spent with his love and would always wish the same for her...
Disclaimer: Names used in this mail are imaginary and not related to anyone’s lives at all.!!!
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